You know that one moment in your life, when you brain kinda froze for a split second, you cant hear anything in the world and you feel that whatever it is that's going on right in front of your very eyes isnt really happening? Well that happened to me last night and i still havent found a strong enough word to describe my feelings right then. To see someone I truly love - my own mother screaming in pain on the cold hard metal stairs - it felt like someone had put there hands around my neck and choking me with all their strengths. For a split second, i could not get any words out of my mouth. My brain didnt registered what had happened and the next thing i know my mouth had moved by itself and i screamed looking for a way to help my mum. Seeing her finger trapped between the barrister, and the blood and the panic i felt creeping all around my body. If I could, i would like to go back in time and told her to slow down before she ran down the stairs.
It made em glad to be living in england, the ambulance came just under one minute and followed on by another team of medics and fire rescue team. They had to pull the barrister away from the stair, my mum had fallen so fast that her little finger got caught between the small space between the stairs and the barrister that it was impossible to pull it out without seriously injuring her. As much as i wanted to, i could not look. I dont know how many times i cried that night, tears just came automatically. I hated seeing her in such pain that i had to keep blocking the image out, even now, i still cant believe what had happened to her. My heart has never beat so fast in my life and i had never felt so helpless. Good thign there was alot of people around because all i could do was just panicking and crying, over and over again.
Now my only hope is for her to get better and that nothing terrible will happen to her finger. Hopefully the worst part had gone...


I love you mum.